Friday, August 10, 2007

I - as a wife and a mom, in a log cabin. Now, that's perfect.

Lately, I’ve been having frequent voyage to the future.

I was thinking of taking a break after graduation. Wow, now I’m talking about graduation, when I’m in the pinnacle of being a college student. Overwhelming. Well, anyway, yes, I was thinking of becoming impossibly lazy for an imprecise period of time after I receive my college diploma. I just wanted to take time to catch up on sleep, travel, read, watch tv, improve my driving – simply put, be an incredible bum, just to compensate all the distress I’m currently experiencing.

Last Monday, (or was it Tuesday, I don’t know), we were in Coffee Blends and all of a sudden, I tossed that thought from my head. Seeing the happily (I assume) married couple, and a vibrant and smart, curly-haired little girl (not their child though), I suddenly wanted to fast forward time and never waste a minute to fulfill my dream of becoming a parent and a wife. As of my career, I think I’m lost.

While he is not the boyfriend yet, I want him to be the man of course.

Being a mom has always been a dream. Although I don’t want to think about the part of really having a baby getting out off me. It’s really scary. I want two kids, a boy and a girl, with not much wide of the age gap. I will raise well-rounded kids – kids who will have piano, martial arts, ballet, or whatever classes they want, kids who will learn writing and reading at a very early age. I want them to grow with values and principles. I want them to be sensitive to the needs of other people and possess affection towards others. I will raise kids who will be faithful to Him.

I will be a loyal wife. I will never lose my interest in him.

And where will we live? I want a log cabin. Before, I wanted a brick-finishing house, like ours. But then, after browsing some magazines, and seeing few real log homes, suddenly I want one also.


Note: Sorry if the pictures became pixelated.
I want a cozy home. And I think yellow lights, glass windows, and white will go together in a log cabin.

Thinking about the future brings an unexplainable feeling of excitement. And it’s a good thing that now, little by little, what I want to do with my life is becoming less blurry.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Keep up the good work.