Taking the jump with him is something I was never wrong about. Aside from ending people’s speculations about why we were still unidentified, I also allowed myself to unearth new joys of having someone I can view the future with, in a more transparent version.
I thought the move I made would alter nothing at all, and I thought pretty right. Except that everything is a score higher. That is - the love of course, the sugariness, the effort, the spark, and all else nice and positive. Although we have not submitted ourselves yet to wearing matching outfits and I am sure we never will, calling him the boyfriend gives me a tingly feeling and other people seeing us gives me a different kind of delight, something that I had never felt before.
But of course, I know too that the step I made with him isn’t all about the upbeat feelings and the monthly celebration. It’s about obligations, compromise, and setting aside pride, too.
And I am confident to say that I am confident, about the whole US story.
Ever since I had enough understanding about relationships, I have always believed in the principle of Cost and Reward. It says that reward should still be greater than the cost. If one gets less than what he gives, then it can be grounds for terminating a relationship.
He has been the nicest boyfriend one can imagine. He is appreciative of every little thing I do. Doing little, beautiful things for him is a satisfaction because with him, I am never mistreated and I never felt neglected. Never did we do things or offer to do things for each other for the sake of filling our duties, but for the most part that it felt genuinely good, making each other happy.
Another principle I have learned along the way is that of Withdraw and Deposit.
Certainly, relationship is about both the nice stuffs and the crappy stuffs, the wonderful memories and the ones that are rather forgotten, the time together and the time needed to be apart.
Deposits are the beautiful times together while withdraws are the dreadful ones. The principle is that withdraws should not be even with the deposits or else, there would be a zero balance. Worse, if withdraws exceed the deposits, there would be a negative balance. And it would result to bankruptcy. I am also a fanatic of this principle.
And that is what we do now. We stopped bickering. We laugh our hearts out always instead. We create and collect a lot of great memories together and try to dodge from making memories we will soon choose not to remember.
Soon after, we will remember these great moments we have shared, while gawking at our reflections on the moon, counting airplanes that flutter, and shutting our eyes with ourselves folded around each other.
I love you.
I thought the move I made would alter nothing at all, and I thought pretty right. Except that everything is a score higher. That is - the love of course, the sugariness, the effort, the spark, and all else nice and positive. Although we have not submitted ourselves yet to wearing matching outfits and I am sure we never will, calling him the boyfriend gives me a tingly feeling and other people seeing us gives me a different kind of delight, something that I had never felt before.
But of course, I know too that the step I made with him isn’t all about the upbeat feelings and the monthly celebration. It’s about obligations, compromise, and setting aside pride, too.
And I am confident to say that I am confident, about the whole US story.
Ever since I had enough understanding about relationships, I have always believed in the principle of Cost and Reward. It says that reward should still be greater than the cost. If one gets less than what he gives, then it can be grounds for terminating a relationship.
He has been the nicest boyfriend one can imagine. He is appreciative of every little thing I do. Doing little, beautiful things for him is a satisfaction because with him, I am never mistreated and I never felt neglected. Never did we do things or offer to do things for each other for the sake of filling our duties, but for the most part that it felt genuinely good, making each other happy.
Another principle I have learned along the way is that of Withdraw and Deposit.
Certainly, relationship is about both the nice stuffs and the crappy stuffs, the wonderful memories and the ones that are rather forgotten, the time together and the time needed to be apart.
Deposits are the beautiful times together while withdraws are the dreadful ones. The principle is that withdraws should not be even with the deposits or else, there would be a zero balance. Worse, if withdraws exceed the deposits, there would be a negative balance. And it would result to bankruptcy. I am also a fanatic of this principle.
And that is what we do now. We stopped bickering. We laugh our hearts out always instead. We create and collect a lot of great memories together and try to dodge from making memories we will soon choose not to remember.
Soon after, we will remember these great moments we have shared, while gawking at our reflections on the moon, counting airplanes that flutter, and shutting our eyes with ourselves folded around each other.
I love you.
2 comments:
the deposit and withdraw thing is so true. it's ok to withdraw sometimes, as long as there are deposits to back 'em up and protect the rel. from overdrafts.
gahd. im using those jargons now. poor poor.
Oonga eh, wala pa naman akong background dyan. Kelangan itranslate to layman's terms. Hehe=)
Anyhow, I believe you when it comes to matters of the heart, and regarding the other matters, goodluck, I know kaya mo yan!=)
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