Hey Big Brother, I'm Back!

The more we know, the more we reject Him. The smarter we get, the more we neglect Him.

Why?

Perhaps because we fail to accept that there are things men cannot potentially do. We fail to accept that there is Someone Superior than anything else and anyone else. We become so full of ourselves and believe that we rank first.

When I entered college, I was appalled of how people in the outside (and real) world are. I was not surprised of their (and our) varied grassroots, and multifaceted way of life. I was anticipating and preparing myself for it since then. What I was not geared up for is the actuality that people have different, and most of the time, opposite beliefs about the Supreme Being. Some are even atheists, and agnostics. Yes, I have met some professors who are, and they would not allow students to talk about their faith. Their argument is, everybody should be sensitive of the reality that our beliefs may have an inverse relationship. I would accept their statement as valid. But there are also professors who are such that would try to influence students, whether explicitly or implicitly and students would, subconsciously or not, experience perplexity.

In all honesty, even my faith was challenged. Since I started schooling, I went to private sectorian schools. But when I studied in UP, wherein I had a taste of what the real world is, it's all different. People came to challenge me, to test my faith, to make me believe that what I believe in is nothing but pure state of the mind, and pushed me into the cognitive content of their own.

For a time, my faith reached its lowest point. I ignored and denied Him many times, not because I listened to them. My faith was never weakened by those who questioned it. All along, my faith was there but there was a feeling of unworthiness. My interaction with Him was in a halt because there were times when I chose other things over Him. But He never gave up on making me see how forgiving He truly is.

The biggest difference is, now, more than innate, faith becomes a choice.

And I choose to strengthen my faith. I choose to worship and communicate with Him again. Because everything I am, and everything I have now, I owe it to Big Brothr Up Stairs!