This is that one thing I’ve been dreading the most – hurting someone who least deserve it, by letting the monster out off me.
One minute I’m lovely – sweet, caring, and gentle- the minute after, I’m horrible – capricious, offensive, and rough.
Why do I keep on unlearning things?
Even I, feel confused with the way I act, with the way I (accidentally) hurt him, with the way I try to ruin our supposedly happy times.
And so suddenly, I just found myself crying out all the guilt inside. So many painful words slipped off my mouth, but I am really guilty inside. But then, the words still lost their balance. Why?
For that I hate myself.
And I hate myself more. Because after every twinge in the heart, and mind (and ego) I caused him, there he was, never allowing me to get out of his tight grip.
Guilty.
One minute I’m lovely – sweet, caring, and gentle- the minute after, I’m horrible – capricious, offensive, and rough.
Why do I keep on unlearning things?
Even I, feel confused with the way I act, with the way I (accidentally) hurt him, with the way I try to ruin our supposedly happy times.
And so suddenly, I just found myself crying out all the guilt inside. So many painful words slipped off my mouth, but I am really guilty inside. But then, the words still lost their balance. Why?
For that I hate myself.
And I hate myself more. Because after every twinge in the heart, and mind (and ego) I caused him, there he was, never allowing me to get out of his tight grip.
Guilty.
3 comments:
i love you so much baby..
i know i've been so inconsiderate and insensitive the past days.. pero sweetie, yknow i can't lose you.. i'll keep you forever. i'll be as patient as always. kaw din ha? heheh..
hay...friend ur lucky bene's like that. love you both.. =) sweet. =)
awww..speechless!!!hahahaha..
bene's the most patient person i've ever met..hahaha..at may mga gantong factors pa sa cooment??yikee..
miss you pepay..now i'll be updated on "the" lovelife na..
*hugs*
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